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上帝與厭世的想法

God and Pessimism

一直以來，小小基督徒酥喵我都有種厭世。

For the longest time, I have felt the grip of pessimism.

每天早上醒來，雖然也會禱告，卻還是有點乏力。

I woke up every morning and I would pray, but I still feel weary.

身為基督徒，我知道應該定睛在上帝身上。

As a Christian, I know that I should fix my eyes on God only.

然而，人出門在外，還是要活在這個物質世界啊(握拳)。

However, as a living human being, I just have to live in this material world ().

就像此刻，本人已經一個月沒有案子，

Like right now, one month have gone by and I haven't done much.

除了中間有個很短的東西要翻譯，

Except that I had to translate a short letter at some point,

開始覺得隨時會被資遣，也好，我沒有很想留下。

I began to feel that I will be involuntarily dismissed, which is good because I don't want to stay.

那麼，關於厭世，上帝又會怎樣說呢?

So, what does God think of pessimism?

請看下列對話:

Please see the following dialogue:

上帝: 早安，我的女兒，今天是禮拜一呢!

God: Good morning my daughter, today is Monday!

酥喵: 對啊，又是沒事做的一天，太好了。

Ms. Su-Miao: That's right, another day without doing anything.

上帝: 的確，最近妳比較空閒。

God: True, you have more time on your hands now.

酥喵: 上帝，我怎麼還不被資遣? 每天沒事做也很煩。

Ms. Su-Miao: God, how come I'm not laid off yet?  Doing nothing is truly painful.

上帝: 那妳不上班要做甚麼呢?

God: So if you don't work, what will you do?

酥喵: 我會努力找其他事情吧! 其實我很厭世，為什麼我還活著呢?

Ms.Su-Miao: I will try hard to find another job!  I'm actually tired of living, why am I still alive?

上帝: 生命在我啊! 難道妳沒事做就要收回妳生命嗎，孩子?

God: I control life, and just because you have nothing to do, I shall take your life my child?

酥喵: 我只是覺得無所事事，活在世界上也只是排放廢氣而已。

Ms. Su-Miao: I just feel like I'm doing nothing, and I merely breathe out carbon dioxide in this world.

上帝: 我懂了，妳把生命的價值都放在工作上?

God: I see, you've placed your life values on your work only?

酥喵: 也不是。只是覺得沒做事感覺不好。

Ms. Su-Miao: Not really, I just don't feel accomplished.

上帝: 妳會有事情做的，如果真的沒事，我自然會把妳帶到別的地方。

God: You will have something to do.  If you are done here, I will bring you elsewhere.

酥喵: 我是不是這輩子都只能這樣了?

Ms. Su-Miao: Is this all I will be in this life?

上帝: 妳想太多了，這不是妳要擔心的，難道妳還能預測下一秒要發生甚麼?

God: You think too much, this is not your concern.  Could you even predict what will happen next?

酥喵: 我是無法。

Ms. Su-Miao: That I cannot.

上帝: 活在當下每一秒，即便妳覺得無聊。生命就是每分每秒的累積。

God: Live in the moment's every second, even if you feel bored.  Life is the accumulation of each second and minute.

酥喵: 世界還是讓我厭倦啊! 上帝。

Ms. Su-Miao: The world still makes me weary, Father.

上帝: 我知道，孩子。但是生命的本質就是會經歷情緒，人生也不會永遠難過或快樂。

God: I know, my child.  But life was made to undergo all types of emotions.  You won't always be sad or happy.

酥喵: 累的時候我該怎麼辦呢?

Ms. Su-Miao: What should I do when I feel tired?

上帝: 休息啊。不要慌張，我總會帶領妳。聖靈也會的。

God: Take a rest.  Don't panic, I will take the lead.  The Holy Spirit shall help too.

酥喵: 如果還是厭世呢?

Ms. Su-Miao: What if I still feel weary?

上帝: 那想想妳要如何才能不厭世。這個世界遲早會走到盡頭，厭倦也只是暫時。

God: Think about how not to feel weary.  This world will come to an end, weariness is just temporary.

酥喵: 所以，我該把注意力放在如何不厭世，盡量活在當下嗎?

Ms. Su-Miao: So, I should put my focus on how not to feel weary, and live in the moment as best as I can?

上帝: 是的。妳的努力我都知道，孩子。

God: Yes.  I see all your efforts, my child.

酥喵: 我真的盡力了，上帝。

Ms.Su-Miao: I tried my best, Father. 

上帝: 人生不是遊戲，不能半途而廢。當妳厭世，我會給妳力量，但是妳要相信我。

God: Life is not a game, you cannot just quit.  When you feel weary, I will give you power.  But you have to believe in me.

酥喵: 我知道了，上帝。

Ms. Su-Miao: Acknowledged, Father.